I'd die for that moment one more time (My Dying Bride - Your River)

It's Christmas Eve.

Wicked.

I woke up early. Fed the cats with their food. Bacon and eggs (and Carelian pies) for myself. Also coffee.

As a matter of fact, I woke up before sunrise. Well, of course, the sun never rises here at this time of the year, but anyways I woke up at 5 A.M. solely because I'm thinking of doing some shopping during the wee hours the shops are open this morning.

Between Ceaser and nothing there are plenty of ways to be (Samael - Slavocracy)

Just a few block away from X-mas. I'm not festive and I am not religious. But I like them days off work.

Working this weekend. A spare day. An evening shift. And five days work-free. Kinda fucking like that.

I have the latest Far Cry (#4), I'm also playing Destiny and I have fucklots of movies to watch and music to listen. And I have quite a good collection of proper red wine to pour. I'm contemplating of buying more whisky.

I should finally watch True Detective. 

Not too much of fun and debauchery though. Don't want to sit on my ass all days. I wish the weather will be nice, at least alright, so I can go running. I'm planning to buy new sports wear next Monday, proper shoes at least. I don't want to fall down like I did around the same time last year and break my bones to bits and stay off work and drink myself senseless. 

Well, I'm sorry I drank too much whiskey, but I am the star (Mustasch - The Man The Myth The Wreck)

Christmas is coming, winter is not.

It's so wet and dark and grey and shadowy and muddy and shitty that it's pretty desperate.

I don't know how the sun looks like. I've forgotten its existence. All world is lost.

I'd take the fucking snow and the fucking freezing temperature than this shit.

I'm glad the christmas holidays are soon here, so I can close the door and all the curtains and be with my cats and drink wine and play computer fucking games and listen to music and watch all the movies. Stay inside and visit the bleak outside world as little as possible.

But otherwise, it's alright.

How nothing good ever came from this town (Nick Cave - A Grief Came Riding)

Last evening I drank a bottle of Italian red wine and went to sleep.

It was Finland's day of independence.

I didn't watch the celebration from TV (as did 2.4 million Finnish people). I watched Premium League football.

This morning I have been listening to music and playing Civilization V. My German nation is doing well.

The shadow of a spider blocks our sun that's died (Septic Tank - Fatal Eclipse)

A long week, or what seemed like a long week, behind. All sorts of fucking things. Yesterday, after Sunday work, two hours of football in zero temperature, at home went straight to bed and slept like a baby.

Woke up early today. Some porridge and self-ground Costa Rican coffee. A day-off feels like fucking heaven.

There's an evil in your brain driving you fucking insane (Sadus - Torture)

In zero temperature there was 22 of us playing football yesterday evening. People from Finland, Chile, Brazil, Cuba, Serbia, Argentina and Peru. We played for 2 hours. It was fun.

I finished watching The Trip movie in the morning and now I'm killing time listening to music while waiting to go to an evening shift.

Been dazed and confused for so long it's not true (Led Zeppelin - Dazed and Confused)

Finland lost to Hungary yesterday. What a surprise. I drank Chilean and Macedonian red wine exclusively.

I'm spending my Saturday morning as I always do; listening music and drinking coffee. This time 'round, I'm listening to some lenghty tracks, from artists like Lustmord for instance. Or some classic Led Zeppelin.

The winter slammed us like a fist (Nick Cave - People Ain't No Good)

Expect more (read: lots of) Nick Cave headlines from now on. I found a used Nick Cave The Complete Lyrics 1978-2001 book and it's resting on my worktable from now on. I owned copy of it already, even a newer edition, but I've been quite happy keeping it in the toilet. So, I now I have two copies and it makes my life a whole lot easier.

Not a very fitting title though. Winter hasn't slammed us like a fist yet. It's 'round the corner, probably, but not yet.

Hungary against Finland in Euro qualifications in the evening. Some (read: lots) wine. Today I bought my first bottle of Barolo wine, it was rather expensive. Don't know, if I dare to drink it just yet. I'll probably start with Chilean and Macedonian products first.

My heart is a fish toasted by flames (The Birthday Party - Zoo Music Girl)

An evening shift at work.

Woke up early because the cats didn't let me sleep.

Been listening to music for couple of hours. I should finish the new Kevin Costner movie I started yesterday evening, but don't feel like because it was boring shit.

Is there one amongst us here who disbelieves? (Demon - Don't Break The Circle)

Yesterday I went running and this morning I'm feeling fucking tired. I also stayed up late last night watching the latest X-men movie.

It's a fasting day, so I prepared the stuff I'm going to eat today which includes a pear, watermelon, strawberry soup and spaghetti with some meat as the main course. Also, lots of water, coffee and non-calory soda.

I like these days. I can feel quite hungry at times, but you still don't need to think about food. You eat what you are supposed to and that's that, you concentrate on other things.

I don't believe in Hitler that's wut I said (Afroman - Because I Got High)

Busy day at work yesterday. Watched an episode of Walking Dead and slept like a baby the whole night. Woke up an hour before my usual schedule, fit as a fiddle. Coffee and cereal. And music before going to work.

Just couple of days ago I jazzed about a lenghty track, an Evil Blizzard tune. And now I'm all flabbergasted by Current 93's  Where The Long Shadows Fall, clocking in 19:08. Quite amazing. And their rendering of the trad. song All The Pretty Little Horses, with the helping hand of Nick Cave, that's a tune of some serious calibre.

I who have no end and no beginning (Opium Warlords - The God in Ruins)

I'm listening to a very cool song right now. Evil Blizzard's Whalebomb from their "The Dangers Of Evil Blizzard" album. The running time of the song is 19 minutes and one second. I could listen to it the whole day.

I drank a lot yesterday. I lost count after two bottles of wine. I do remember that I went to a couple of pubs.

I have a fasting day, so I try to eat as little in the morning as possible. Water, coffee, soda and fruit soup while the time being. I have a football practise in the evening, so I've reserved a pear and a low calory dish for that.

Ordered couple of nicely designed shirts from a new webstore.

Born unto the age of the golden (Devendra Banhart - This Beard Is For Siobhán)

Yesterday I drank some Georgian red wine, Mukuzani, but not too much. I had a busy day at work, so I was very tired. Besides the wine, I tried to boost up the mood with music, PS3 football and Medal Of Honor series, but to no avail. So I just brushed my teeth, went to bed and read some Lars Kepler and fell asleep.

Cats, as always, woke me up a few times. Sulo even opened the curtains for me in the morning. That was nice.

I'm goin' to heist your hood (Robert Johnson - Me and The Devil Blues)

Couple of rainy days in the making.

Woke up to a Friday morning. I bought a wake-up light alarm clock from a flea market, don't know how to operate the fucking thing properly, but it's alright. Besides the light, I wake up to the sounds of music these days, so that's new, I have a very good local radio fixed on it and today I woke up to a very good tune that I've forgotten already, yesterday I woke up to Afroman's Because I Got High, it got me going real good.

No plans for the weekend. Except football. And wine.

He knows all the girls in town, whoa (The Sonics - The Hustler)

Killing time before marching into work. Music, coffee and water. A fasting day, so don't eat much.

A pair of new headphones I ordered from Amazon arrived today. I break those a few pairs a year, so couple of extra ones came in handy.

Two evening shifts looming ahead. But also two days of Champions League football.

Decay stinks like hell (Hellhammer - Death Fiend)

A day-off.

I have been listening to music. I also have drank coffee. It's all very mellow.

I also have paid close attention to weather forecast. It's possibly going to rain later on. Or then it isn't. We are living exciting times.

If it rains, I'll go running. If it doesn't, I'll go to play football.

And then I'll eat.

Choose a side, or choose a headstone (Dennis Lehane - Live By Night)

Ooh, haven't been here for a while. Forgot the fucken thing existed that's why.
Still, not much to say. Things aren't changed overtly much. Still working at a library. Off to the fucking thing in few minutes, a Sunday duty. Drinking coffee that I grind myself (good shit) and I hear my cat is licking water just next to me. I wish it was a day-off because I could keep on drinking the good wine I found couple of days earlier (Chilean Pinot Noir Maycas Limari), maybe play some Medal of Honour: Advanced Warfighter or do something else.

I ride until the death (Watain - Outlaw)

I hurt my knee. I hate getting old, getting these injuries. Fuck.

It ain't bad. I hope. At least I can walk. Barely. But at least I can. I'm having a holiday, so it ain't that fucken bad. But still. I'd rather play football than drink wine and whiskey right now.

I still haven't fully recovered from my wrist injury.

Just to play it safe, I bought a bicycle helmet. It's the only thing - my head - that I haven't hurt the past couple of years. 

I fight darkness with darkness (Lafayette - True Blood)

Another loooong break. I'm off the cast so I can write, that's one. But I'm still on the process of healing. It's been long and frustrating. Miserable.
But I'm coming back. I've been running a couple times now. I'm using my hand more and more. Hurts still, but it's getting better. And I don't want to sound like a whiny motherfucker. I'm not a cancer survivor. Not back from 12 months leave from fucking Afghanistan or anything. You don't have to read. So fuck off elsewhere.
Otherwise, I'm back at work. And there's a shitty period going on. We're in the process of organizing of what we do. Well, the others decide. It's a fucking circus. So fuck that too.